One more try

That was one of the last songs from the former boyband-A1, if you still remember them.
I dunno why the sudden decision to disband. They arrived at the time when every girls go ga-ga over Backstreet Boys, N-sync, Westlife etc.

No,they aren't the most phenomenal pack of voices nor the most good looking ones. But I thought they were the most "real" ones.Many others just seem quite packaged to me, no doubt I was kinda mad over the always Backstreet Boys.

Those were the days.

I finished reading Tuesdays with Morrie. I had wanted to cry along with Morrie's departure but again what for? Morrie wouldn't want anyone to cry for him,though he wouldn't discourage tears.

I swear I don't even know what that book is about at all,even when I decided to buy it. It is almost like something's bugging me when I first saw that book in Borders, like Someone from nowhere told me that I must have that book. And it is almost nothing but pure luck that I saw it at the display windows @ Peace Centre(Can you believe it?Not major bookstores but a shop reeks of old,decaying books) and it's only for $10!I dunno what's the market price but I believe that I 'stole' something good..real good!

And here's how it begins.


I was almost astonished to realise that I have some of Morrie's philosophies of life. Or maybe I thought I do.
I wish I know someone like him to bring me a step closer to what I believe, what I've been searching for. But I thought even if I met someone like him,would I be ashamed to face him?

I knew that there's something "wrong" with this man-made culture, with this ever hungry society and everyone is just blindly following suit.

I often wonder why can't people slow down to see the sky, to stop for a cuppa and not always rushing to the next destination. Of cos' till I forget about that sometimes and follow them, follow what they are doing, till I get tired and feel sad about my life.

I often wonder why can't people be more genuine, talk something more emotional and real? That was till I forego that thought and joined what they are always talking about, till I really never remember smiling from the heart when I was there laughing with them.

There are so many things that I wish there is someone else to teach me to be different from them. Stick to what I believe and be strong about that. Go look at the skies, go feel the wind!It's really ok about that.

It really makes me think..what if I would be doing this forever, for the rest of my life? It doesnt matter what job that I would be doing and where I live. Cos' this carries on everywhere.

Would this prompt me to do something that I wanna do next time?

Over here, we are mostly concerned about how much we earn, how much we save eventually. We are blinded by the materials accumulating and we calculated all those that we need want.

Cos' Von said it. Cos' Morrie said it.Cos' those who are old said it. Cos' I said it.

We are all gonna die one day.

Does all that makes life real for us?

Is a man who live in a one room HDB less successful than those living in private estate?
Is a man who take public transport less successful than those who drive around in those SG-plates?

Who mark all those?Who say this and that?
Why won't we believe in our own culture?Why did we start buying all those craps?

Humans did that. In the name of success, fame, comfort and all. Devils do them.

No wonder we see innocence in the eye of a child. No wonder we see sadness and emptiness in the eye of a grown up.

Maybe I shall leave with this quote from Morrie. A guru to many. His words are almost a sutra. And he only is that wise when he learned to embrace death and ..life.

So many people walk around with a meaningless life.
They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing something they think are important.
This is because they are chasing the wrong things.
The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.

Almost like Sunday with Mich. Makes ME think.